I have let this horrifying feeling of turning 30 years old consume my thoughts as of late. I still have a whole year and 16 days before that even happens, yet all I can think of are ways to try and avoid the inevitable. I have gone as far as straight denial and telling my friends I will just have 29 again birthdays every year or try to start over at 21 instead. (seriously?!)
Honestly, this feeling of fear and dread that I have doesn't even have anything to do with getting older or dying. It is more so that I haven't really accomplished anything extraordinary with my life in these nearly 30 years. I do not want to confuse or take away from every life's greatest accomplishment which I believe is love.Yes I am the mother of an extremely adorable, way too smart for his britches, sweet little boy. And yes I am finally in a relationship with a man who not only loves me and my son and takes care of us, but he also shows me kindness and respect and supports me in ways I never thought I deserved! My life is not horrible and it is not empty. I just cannot fight this internal feeling I have that I should be doing more. I should have finished more things that I started. I should not be afraid to turn 30 years old.
I am proud to say that I have made the greatest decision that I could make for myself. I am going to embrace 30 with open arms. I want to shout from the roof tops "Bring it On 30!" I want this life of mine to be a journey, not a destination.
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With that being said I have decided to create a list. A sort of bucket list. 30 things I want to do or accomplish before I turn 30. (These are in no particular order)
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30 before 30
1. Go on a family camping trip.
2. See the ocean and walk on the beach.
3. Take a class just for fun.
4. Become a manager.
5. Go horseback riding.
6. Learn to drive stick shift.
7. Get in the best shape of my life.
8. Climb a rock wall.
9. Visit Washington D.C.
10. Ride on a boat.
11. Read 30 books for fun.
12. Build something.
13. Visit a local Farmer's Market.
14. Get a tattoo.
15. Run in a 5K.
16. Go ziplining.
17. Live in a house.
18. Watch Tyler's list of movies I've never seen.
19. Sell something I have made.
20. Plant a tree/Grow something.
21. Visit a new state.
22. Cook 1 new recipe every month.
23. Go hiking with my camera often.
24. Start blogging twice a week.
25. Ride on a Ferris Wheel.
26. Play paintball.
27. Learn something new.
28. Pay it Forward.
29. Finish a 365 Project.
30. Buy a bike and go riding.